Ho-hum

He loves me

He loves me not

He loves me

He loves me not

He loves me

H loves me not

Please let him tell me that he loves me....

Dear heart,

I am sorry if you're hurt again. Was I too aggressive? Did I push you too much? 

Don't worry. The wound will heal in time. Perhaps by then, you'll be at right place at the right time.

Just don't give up on love. You're designed for that. You're made to love him. You've just got to wait. 

When there's nothing you can do

Life keeps on teasing me. It's within my reach,right in front of me and yet there's nothing i can do to get a hold of it. Very frustrating indeed! 

Should I give up then? Am I making a fool out of myself? Is it love or craziness that i can't let go?

I wish i know all the answers...

. 

When i am sick

   I really don't like being sick. It affects my life- my ministry, my job... 

   Iam wondering why i become sickly again these days. I thinki am always sick every week. Oh no!

   Should i exercise? I have no time for that given my busy schedule. Should i sleep early? How about my classes and my students.

   I think i need a break- some days off.. Please let me have a break... 

Going on...

She's been contemplating about life and love in the past few days. Her being a hopeless romantic has driven her crazy that she can't take it anymore. She loves to love but she always ends up giving too much of herself. She gets hurt. She cries. Yet, she keeps holding on to THAt love. She just can't let go.

She fights for it. Deep down herself she reasons why she can't to let go of the love- the love that gives life to her life. That love gives her a different kind of happiness and fulfillment. It makes her complete.

She gives all that she has... She leaves none for herself.

Now, he's gone. Not that he left but they both need some time to clear things up. They have to wait... And wait... But until when? She doesn't know.

She has been waiting. She keeps on waiting... Yet...

She's devastated- if that can completely sum up what she feels.

She has to be strong... She has to see things clearly as what they are not what she thinks they are...

What she feels...

She just feels so insecure. Thoughts keep running on her mind.
"What if i am not good enough? What if he finds someone better? What if it's really her all along?"
What else can she do but wait. Cards aren't on her side. She's at the dead end.