control

   I did it!
   Tonight,  I have successfully controlled the urge to talk to him. :) I am going somewhere, I guess.
   Actually, it's not easy to just stop talking to a person, especially when I have nothing against him. I am doing it because I need to stop hurting myself more. The idea here is, the more time I spend with him the deeper is my emotional attachment.
   You see, almost everyone is against 'us.' They don't like me for him. As the song goes, 'they say we don't fit together.' That fact hurts.
   Maybe, he has given up already or he's just waiting for the right time. I don't know.  Have I given up already? I don't know, either. I am scared to know the truth...

dispensable

  Dispensable- That's what I think people see me. The worst is, they are the people I value much. They consider me as someone they can have when they want to. But when the situation gets hard, they leave me alone; they drop me. I don't blame them. I am not special- I am just one of the 7 billion people on this planet