control

   I did it!
   Tonight,  I have successfully controlled the urge to talk to him. :) I am going somewhere, I guess.
   Actually, it's not easy to just stop talking to a person, especially when I have nothing against him. I am doing it because I need to stop hurting myself more. The idea here is, the more time I spend with him the deeper is my emotional attachment.
   You see, almost everyone is against 'us.' They don't like me for him. As the song goes, 'they say we don't fit together.' That fact hurts.
   Maybe, he has given up already or he's just waiting for the right time. I don't know.  Have I given up already? I don't know, either. I am scared to know the truth...